My First/50-somthing?

so i suppose this is sorta like my first blog... but i also blog under "The Life of Teens" (kidsfornow.blogspot.com) this one is all my own. maybe once a month i'll blog hre when i need to release thoughts that if my friend heard.. or read i'd be dead. For example. if you read the life of teens then you know about my best guy friend/ ex boyfriend Jesus. hes like really awesome. we act like were still going out...minus the holding hands and kissing nd all that junkk. theres one problem... he has a girlfriend. and although its been three months and seven days since we broke up, i still sorta kinda.. like him... a lot. like i know were never gonna go back out again but i still have thoughs feelings for himm. Anyways, latly ive been realizing this, and i realize that i miss his laugh i miss the way hed akwardly, and randomly say "babe... i love you" i miss him begging me to stay up five minutes longer, then after those five, ten more, i miss him hugging me for 10 minutes with nothing to say. i miss him being the last person i talk to every night. maybe its because its whats familiar, but my point is that i miss it. i miss him. anyways, i had one other boyfriend that i count. Jason. hes really nice and all, but ehhh... hes the kind you expect would cheat on you and all that. the kind you really wish you could trust, and change because other than those few really bad wualities, theyre perfect. but you cant change anyone unless theyre willing to changee. anyways, ive met two guys recently who are totally cool! ones name is really hard to pronounce but hes awesome. i met him at my cousins "partyy" and the other is Seth. hes going to my high school and we met a t oriantation. he used the funniest line on me "you whatd be really cool? if we had a project together and you had to come over my house" hahaa it was funny :D well anyways, my bells about to ring to go to social studiess it was nice bloggin with ya :D haha enjoy the rest of Earth Day :)