he didntt...

make it official. its on his myspace that he wants to but... is he just bluffing? i know i always said i dont make the first move, but if the feeling is mutual then why wait? maybe tomorrwo in the morning if he gets there early enough ill do it. ill pull him aside tell him i wanna tell him something, pull him in and bang... i was gonna do it today but my brother was right next to me and im like. no i am NOT abot to it in front of my little brother. bahaha but anyways im pretty sure he wont mind... i think.. i hopee. jesus really thinks me nd jason are going out. its kinda cute how jealous he gets. but like little puppy cute. like i didnt see him so i didnt give him a hug and he was all "aww what your in a rush to see your bofriendd?" nd i jsut said yes then gave him a hug nd walked away. im not gonna waste my time on him. hes gota girlfriendd nd i should have respected that. but anyways were still friends. just friends. well i gotta go cause my brothers getting on then my sisterr. ao adios :D

My First/50-somthing?

so i suppose this is sorta like my first blog... but i also blog under "The Life of Teens" (kidsfornow.blogspot.com) this one is all my own. maybe once a month i'll blog hre when i need to release thoughts that if my friend heard.. or read i'd be dead. For example. if you read the life of teens then you know about my best guy friend/ ex boyfriend Jesus. hes like really awesome. we act like were still going out...minus the holding hands and kissing nd all that junkk. theres one problem... he has a girlfriend. and although its been three months and seven days since we broke up, i still sorta kinda.. like him... a lot. like i know were never gonna go back out again but i still have thoughs feelings for himm. Anyways, latly ive been realizing this, and i realize that i miss his laugh i miss the way hed akwardly, and randomly say "babe... i love you" i miss him begging me to stay up five minutes longer, then after those five, ten more, i miss him hugging me for 10 minutes with nothing to say. i miss him being the last person i talk to every night. maybe its because its whats familiar, but my point is that i miss it. i miss him. anyways, i had one other boyfriend that i count. Jason. hes really nice and all, but ehhh... hes the kind you expect would cheat on you and all that. the kind you really wish you could trust, and change because other than those few really bad wualities, theyre perfect. but you cant change anyone unless theyre willing to changee. anyways, ive met two guys recently who are totally cool! ones name is really hard to pronounce but hes awesome. i met him at my cousins "partyy" and the other is Seth. hes going to my high school and we met a t oriantation. he used the funniest line on me "you whatd be really cool? if we had a project together and you had to come over my house" hahaa it was funny :D well anyways, my bells about to ring to go to social studiess it was nice bloggin with ya :D haha enjoy the rest of Earth Day :)